Literally!
My name is Matilda and I live in Sweden. Clean, neutral and safe Sweden. Far far far away from the land of never ending battle. Battle for human rights. Battle for human life.
I have never experienced it. The terror, the exposure, the fear of unknowing. The never ending, constantly present fear of every single day.
I live far far away from the indescribable horror that is going on in Iraq, Syria and Nigeria right as we speak.
But I follow it closely in media. I read stories from the people who managed to flee, watch documentaries on jihadists who returned, read editorials from politicians who claim to have solutions. I cry to videos of people being beheaded and slaughtered like the were animals.
It is hurting me. Literally. Physically.
When I watch these cold blooded terror actions my breathing stops, my stomach turns and my eyes hurt. Question after question pops up: “Did I really see that?” “How can they do that?” “Is this really happening right now?” “What is going through the mind of these people?” “Where is their humanity?” And I pray.. God stop this, God save these suffering people, God make the jihadists turn around like you did with Paul. God.
I watch the terror with physical pain. Pain for these people. My people. The human beings in our world. My world. They are friends and families. My friends and family.
I am far far away. Helpless. What can I do?
Far far away. Here, I stand with all these suffering people. I think of you when I go to sleep, I’m sending out love and prayers to you when I got to work. I am hurting with you every single day.
Dear God, please stop this madness!